I once was a happy person.

I don't care if you bully or insult me. 

I once was a person who did not care about looks.

I only smell to make sure I do not put someone away.

I once was a person who did not care about being alone.

But feeling lonely or left out hits different now. 

And I'm scared

So scared that I cry every day and pray that my loved ones will not leave me

Leave me because I made a mistake; my appearance has changed.

Don't have the luxury to help them; I've been busy at work.

and so many reasons I could think of

I'm scared of knowing that I'll be part of anyone's memory. 

I'm scared of knowing I'm hearing voices. Tell me to rest. 

Rest my breath, my heart, my mind, and my soul.